that sad symphony

I regret that night:

when your splendor was clear to

my eyes, but I failed to sing the

song befitting you. Now the nocturnal

rhythm is playing that sad melody

of unproclaimed love. It started with the

gust of cold wind. Could have been

warmed by your presence – melting

my frozen heart. Then the dogs howled,

a crescendo-decrescendo summon for

company. There were the creeps of the

invisible. Shadows of the unlived moments.

How I wish it were the sweet

reverberation of the violin. Playing

our song. Then a moment of silence

disturbed my thought. And little by little

I heard the sound of my lonely heart.

A sad symphony calling you.

rooted

I sat under the shadow of this tree;
and pondered about life –

Where the river of fate will lead me:
to the plateau of abundance, or the
vast sea of mystery; could be
the desert of oblivion.

Then I asked: where I be,
will this old tree where I take refuge
stand forever?

immortal city

There are cities that never die.

And where my weary feet lie I see one.

Once sanctuary to natural wonders: of
towering luscious trees like narra and
acacia. The canopy of which shades
little insects – red fiery ants, bugs, praying
mantis, butterflies of rainbow hues. Where
birds of different feathers nestle. Plants and
flowers scatter. Blooming to color the ground
as canvass painted with pastel. Native.
And appealing. Fresh and refreshing.

When time passes. There are still trees
and shades – now made of metals. Almost
touching the skies. They hide people – dyed
with different traits. Some sweats in their field.
Some trades flesh for life. There are
saints; hypocrites. Indeed, they are colorful.
Above are birds: giants carrying people
to places. Below are similar oversize bugs.
The grounds are flourishing with colorful grass
and vegetation. But the texture and smell,
they differ. Plastics, rubbers, steels, papers.
Stinking like hell. Polluting the world.

This is a city that never dies.

Because it lives without a heart.

a red tulip

My eyes fixed at this wonderful
flora that ever graced this terrain.

Don in crimson dress, inviting,
and beaming with refined beauty.

At times I felt its stare at me.
With the sweetest smile on its face.

But I just could not decipher reality.
Fantasy was toying with emotion.

Then –
a strong instinct to pluck it.

Except I hesitated, was unsure. Afraid.
It might only wilt in my hands.

dream

Pardon my doubt on your
existence, but you pain me
when light opens my eyes.
In verge of despair.
You give false impression –
that I am encased in a
warm embrace. Of a beloved.
Only to realize that illusion.
I shiver in darkness. My bare hands
hugging my body. Cold.
Desolated in the shadows.
At times you affirm this loneliness.
With another loneliness.
Devastating. Please! I am hopeful:
don’t make my day an eternal night
of storms. Shine light in my darkness.
Make me fly when all else are in the sky.

in solitude

Tonight I write a poem for the lonely
for I am one – trapped in a cozy room
where the only light emanates from a
dying lamp; I hear the sound of silence:
it is deafening. But it reminds me I am alive,
for in this unholy hour past midnight, nothing lives
except me. The moon and the stars shine
brightly at the dark sky, they would not confess,
but loneliness overpowers their being. Like me.
As we live distance apart a single touch is
impossible. I want to shout to arouse the stillness
but I recognize the futility, no one will be awaken
except enemies. In this time, I am alone;
my mind though kept wandering, traveling
through time – past, present, future. Yesterday
I had the company of loving beings,
this minute I exist in solitude; will tomorrow
be the same, I ask. No one is certain, but me.
If I persist, paradise is a hand away.
So tonight I end this solitude,
tomorrow I will sow company.

waves

You are great – a part
of a vast ocean enfolding the whole terrain
I will drown if you swallow me, gasping
for breath as my air chamber
slowly crumbles;
the dangerous but wonderful, it is you.
Beauty: the scene of your palisades that churches
become dwarfs:
hue of blue and white intertwined with
splash of green all around. But be not too proud;
you are nothing –
the sun and sky gave you color,
color that nothing compares
and the tectonics dance you in great rhythm
choreographed in harmony.
Be simple, and in eternity
I will see you forever
living in grandeur. Waving.

to redeem

Look into my soul – a prisoner; detained in this earth
of broken dreams and unattainable peace, a Utopia –
a paradise for the fools, I would say. Day in and day out,
I breathe air. It brings me life, but I know it is poison: filled
with smoke of angst, and ill-fated, emanating from the
remnants of Sodom. This aura is omnipotent – fathoming
the ends of the universe, thus inescapable. Where life is,
it follows – rather it lives. From the most minuscule
organisms, there are parasites. And in every man,
there are a hundred who desires to siphon every entity of life;
they are murderers, robbers, rapists, criminals of every kind.
No one is innocent: the good is just a speck in a wholeness
of immorality. This is the world, where every being lives.
This is each being. I am a being. You are.
And to escape is futile. They say there is only one way: to die.
To die – and be brought forth again into new life.
A new life it is, yet destined to live in the same world of lies.
Therefore the way is not really to die; it is to live without
simply breathing. It is to live by inhaling all the maladies,
purifying it with pure emotions. Then the ultimate antidote
to the heinous world is breathed out. And the soul will live free.

the poet

That’s him. On the desk. Making himself at ease
on that wooden chair. Sometimes he would roam
around and finds his place of comfort. Then
he’ll try to weave simple scribbles into meanings
that convey thoughts, emotions, and experiences.
Struggling –
and forcing all the sweats and blood do the work
of creating imaginations. He smirks,
cries, laughs, smiles, frowns. He thinks about
or confuses himself with several feelings and
thoughts. About how the fish flies in the sea
without drowning, the real highest mountains still
unconquered by the toughest, on the continuous burning
of the sun after being buried in the horizon. Even the joys
and harshest of personal experiences –
how he loves to look at his beloved and wish
she’ll always be protected; certainty of a happy-ever-after
ending though it’s just a dream, and before long
the leaving. And the hope of being together again.
On being alone; companies of friends and the shared
moments. These – . Single words concocted with another,
and another. Soon a masterpiece is built. Oftentimes
only he can understand. But then, it will not stop
there. Words cannot suffice, he knows. And so he keeps
forming the world as he knew it. That’s him. Still writing.

a lonely man and the sun

Tell me your secret –
how could you be so tough:
beaming with hope,
with radiance.
amidst the passing of the storms
of lightnings and thunders,
you endure the struggle of
being one;

And here I am
suffering your blaze –
that warmth
encompasses all
my body,
my wondering mind, and
I’m all in drought watching you
– awed by your presence.

two rivers flowing

Two rivers –
they are dripping,
flowing from her lakes
soon as the weary man
commence the leaving

two rivers –
they are dripping,
but the cause not unfolded
guess: was sorrow
or bliss the sense

two rivers –
they are dripping,
and then it will halt
for now lake is no more;
tomorrow it will fill again.

tomorrow

The day is soon no more
without you I expect,
sure you are not today:
to speak, touch
just look at me
without you
I’ll die before midnight.

Even so,
this life gleefully lives the now
still waiting for you;
for in his heart
you’ll always live
another day –
I might see you then.

yesterday

You passed by,
again
shorn of uttering hello
only a hush of goodbye:
and I live down
missing you this moment.

I long to have you
but impossible;
deep in the mind
it is clear,
you’ll always be going by
leaving me today.

a lonely man and the moon

the shade of the moonlight:
yellow, no!
golden
precious and captivating
yet unowned,
not the rich
nor the astronauts
can possess.

and yes, it’s free
that magnificent smile
gleaming with kindness
at me, this forlorn soul
up till now just gazing –
better yet staring
amused and bewildered
by the unraveling sight.

flood in España

Flood –
and the sky did cry
let all her tears down
‘til the water goes knee deep
murky teeming with dirt

España –
the busy street in Manila
where traffic always slows down
students and workers go by
to get their life around

Flood in España –
Oh, that event of the year
when classes are abruptly suspended
yet students find it annoying
trapped in the middle of the lake.

death

I could have met you this night-

don in black satin carrying the scythe -
ready to strike my flesh in excite:

while driving car to city street
maybe a drunken man I meet
beside I find you on seat

or perhaps the darkness in sky
order an armed and give a try
then shoot me in the eye

a dagger could cut my heart
leaving it a bloody art
into two the muscles will part,

but this I tell you dear Death
grateful I am that you never set
tonight my dying he does not let.

sanctuary

Come, enter my haven
let my body shield you from storms
silence will awaken many hearts
the candles will bestow them light.

Come, enter my haven
proceed free as the birds in sky
wait not only the day seventh
come, enter my haven.

Let my body shield you from storms
refresh the weary and dying soul
and misery will be rid off absolutely
come, enter my haven.

Silence will awaken many hearts
inside the faces are laughter and smiles
passion for life is burning within me
come, enter my haven.

The candles will bestow them light
roads ahead are mirror-clear to be
no more blindness in the travelings
come, enter my haven.

Come, enter my haven
let my body shield you from storms
silence will awaken many hearts
the candles will bestow them light.

crap

Man passes by
this world of wonder
where everything is possible
and everything is impossible

the purpose is hidden
the road leads to nowhere
I then used my mind
to determine my life

I ran from bushes to trees
swam the streams and seas
climbed steeps and mountains
but still nothing changed

I am still me
body searching a soul
lost but found
my life unknown.

valley

I once walked across an enormous valley
it was full of grace and a bunch of beauty
I took a glimpse of view throughout its divinity
and realized I've left the life of sorrow and vanity.

The place gave me a feeling of love and creed
and saved me from the life of violence and greed
I walked and walked 'til I know i have vanished
in a place of wonder i have always dreamed.

And then, behold, in the dark i stood
a place that never, anybody will love
but before i could walk on that dim cave
I woke in my room protected and saved.

lifeline

Live life to its fullest
never waste a single moment
bright chances are hastily passing
misfortunes around are just lurking

in the event of uncertainty be strong
expect light after darkness
enjoy every circumstances
but heed the lessons of yesterday

travel today and be merry
for tomorrow's always a stranger.